Relationships

Is This Friendship Over?

2 Comments 31 May 2011

Female friends fightingIt happens without warning, and it hits you with devastating force. Your closest girlfriend cuts you off completely, and you wonder what you did wrong, says Liz Pryor, Good Morning America‘s advice guru and author of What Did I Do Wrong? When Women Don’t Tell Each Other the Friendship Is Over.

I remember thinking how lucky I was to have found a friend like Maggie. I had moved to Los Angeles from my all-American roots in suburban Chicago. I was positive that not a soul I’d meet would go deeper than the color of her hair, and — boom! — along came Mag, real to the bone. Smart, tough, and my kind of funny. We became the kind of friends women live to have. We spent endless hours contemplating life and love and books and men. I was newly married and she was a budding actress. Our lives were perfectly opposite.

The arrival of my first baby was a thrill beyond what either of us ever imagined. We reveled in the baby’s every move. The first time my daughter laughed she was sitting on Maggie’s lap. We thought she was choking; we panicked in sync like psychotics. When the baby had her first vaccination shots, Maggie came with me. For days afterward we fantasized about the different ways in which we could kill the wretched nurse who had administered the shots into my little angel’s bicep. We shared everything that happened in our lives. From the grandest to the smallest, we were emotionally enmeshed.

Just about four years after we met, I called her on an ordinary Saturday afternoon to see if she wanted to join my pregnant-again self and my daughter at the park, and for some reason I didn’t hear back from her. When the third day without reply came and went, I began to wonder. Had something happened? Had I pissed her off? Had the baby pissed her off? Had I done something wrong? Two weeks passed. I finally reached her; she picked up her phone and I said, “Oh, my God, is something wrong?”

She answered quietly and directly, “Not really, I’m just sooo busy.”

Deep in your heart, where bullshit can’t survive, it’s impossible to mistake one woman blowing off another for anything other than what it is. When I hung up the phone with Maggie, I knew somewhere inside me that our friendship was over.

It happens without warning and it hits you with devastating force. Your closest girlfriend, the Ethel to your Lucy, the Thelma to your Louise, stops calling you or seeing you. She has decided for whatever reason to move on with her life and she leaves you to clean up the broken pieces of the friendship. The experience can be as painful as the death of a loved one, and just as confusing as an unexpected breakup with a significant other.

Every woman has experienced a failed friendship, but when it happens we rarely talk about it. Why? For one thing, we have nowhere to turn. The one person we confide in during times of duress is the very person who has left our side. As for husbands and boyfriends, well, we know what little solace they provide in this department. “Maybe she is busy,” my husband, Thomas, replied when I told him about Maggie.

Women are raised to believe that the conflicts in male-female relationships may never resolve, but that the bond between two female friends is steadfast and impervious to other influences. After all, we don’t just make friends; we make friends forever. So when our nearest and dearest gives us the cold shoulder and the silent treatment, we’re left reeling and confused, overwhelmed by a pain that is both acute and unfamiliar. To protect ourselves, we internalize our hurt feelings, bury the issues deep inside us, and try to fill the hole by focusing our attention on anything but the failed friendship.

The problem is that the hole an intimate friend leaves behind can never really be replaced or filled. It is the loss of a loved one, a permanent loss, and in some ways dealing with it can be more difficult than dealing with death because this loved one made a conscious decision to leave your life. A full resolution rarely happens, but it is vital for every woman to try consciously to overcome the experience.

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  1. Lana says:

    People always come and go, but it’s the friends that stick by you that you really want around.

  2. Kelly says:

    I had this happen but the “friend” told me that while she “didn’t want to pursue the friendship at this time. There may be a time in the future where she reaches out to me again.”

    Foolishly, I hung onto that “hope” for years. After 6 years I was included in a bulk email with a family Christmas picture. I was moved to tears of joy. I replied & wished her happy holidays. Kept it light & breezy & brief.

    Four more months went by with nary another word. I was hurt AGAIN. I sent an email wondering what was going on-had she decided that she wanted to reconnect? I mean, I heard nothing from her in over 6 years. I hadn’t made any attempt to connect with her because as I saw it, I was honoring her desire to end the relationship. Her response was that she had hoped that after all that time I had learned that friendships were like rubberbands not nooses but she saw that I hadn’t. So I was banished again. So my reply of “Merry Christmas, too. Everyone looks great!” was too much?

    I have no idea what her perception is of this but from my point of view I keep thinking how arrogant that she feels she can determine when I may grace her life & I should feel grateful for whatever she allows me. While it hurts, I cannot escape the belief that this is the “real” her & not the person I thought I knew.

    I used to look on her FB page (back when I cared what was going on with her). The recurring theme was of her FB friends gushing over what a terrific person she is & her being all modest.

    Lol…guess I’m still bitter, huh?


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